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« on: May 28, 2011, 01:58:46 AM »
elisabeth: Thank you for that link, I must of missed that page when i was reading through that website. Very informative.
Chiara: Enjoy that citizens academy. I did an advanced academy years back. It was great, we got to: Shoot, drive and learned investigative tactics and how to read gang signs, etc.
Theres something so deep about this job to me. I've done enough ride alongs to the point where some officers trust me enough to assist them/ deal with the perpetrators. I am so fortunate - because i've gotten to learn so much not only about the job but as a human being.
When i'm on patrol with these officers, i feel a deep part of me find joy on a level that brings me to tears. This job - I cant explain how much i love it.
I can't describe how it feels, especially at night. At night it's as if you and your best buddies own the streets. Feels like being in what i call "God Mode"
The glow of the interior, the structure and order from the Radio dispatch/laptop, the sound of the V8, i can literally smell something in the air.
The fear - i have not found a job that puts you into terms with your fear like this job. It's such a Surreal moment when your scared. It's so beautiful. I love it. So much pride. so much fear. and the fear smells like salt and sweat you can feel and even smell it.
a surprising percentage of officers, especially city officers die immediatley AFTER retirement because they've used up or tired out all the adrenaline their kidneys can produce and their nerves are just shot. When their bodies no longer get that adrenaline and a abrubt change in lifestyle occurs - they croak.
a large part of me also dislikes this job because it's a baby warriors job in a sense. As hard as you train for command presence and dominance, it's difficult to have the kings overview when your doing so much dirty work. but there is so much to master in this job, so much to learn and grow in, so much to just - evolve in.
It is not a carreer (atleast the patrol aspect) for a grown man, its more for a baby warrior or an adrenaline junky.
One of the reasons being, You cant always be yourself in law enforcement. not in todays age, the days where a cop was a father figure is gone in most cities and communities. (although that is what i strive to be)
ask any officer and they will tell you, the BIGGEST thing you have to learn on this job is how to talk to people. especially any female officer will tell you that.
you have to talk diffrently to diffrent people and it feels like your almost "contracting" yourself out. Persuasion is the simple biggest factor of law enforcement. it's persuasion and speech that gets confessions and disarms dangerous situations with minimal confrontation.
At the end of the day, if your not spiritually aware, you will lose yourself. you will have been all contracted out. You won't know who you are because this job requires you to almost sell yourself out, constantly - on a daily basis, while your dealing with these kids on the streets. a warrior might like that aspect, but it's a crap life after a while. One day , especially as a king soul - you might wake up and realize that dealing with these kids is not worth it, and that the excitement etc. is a foolish endeavor.
In a sense, i feel that this job may stop me from growing in certain aspects of my self. but in moderation - i think it will have a great positive effect on my life. Ultimatley, I am pursuing this career because I would like to make captain/chief.
The service - and on a management level - the product - that a police agency sells, is safety & honorable service. and i feel that is a very noble and quality product to offer , one that i think i can facilitate with honor.
After you serve your time as a glorified grunt (all a cop is these days unfortunatley)you can make captain, possibly lieutenant, heck maybe even chief..have your own warriors under you.
sit down and enjoy the labor of your younger years in an office..sipping on coffee while you read a newspaper..perhaps smoke a nice cigar while you preach the importance of: justice, honor , love - you know, all those fine things in life.
*drooling* one day.. 1 day. Now theres a peaceful thought for ya'
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