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Spirituality / Re: Decording?
« on: January 15, 2012, 04:45:25 AM »
Jo, all my mother wants is for me to be friendly and do what she wants. The problem is, what she wants is for me to belittle myself, my needs, my feelings, my joy in life, in order to make my abusers happy. She is persistent about this, and won't let it go, no matter what I do or say. Reasoning, raw confessions, heartfelt pleas, and outright tantrums of frustration are all met with the same cold rejection. In fact, the abusers' feelings are always more important to her than mine are. I can't tell you how horrible this feels, what an awful reminder it is of the emotional neglect I lived with my entire life. After 15 years of trying to change this, I see it will always be this way. I know why she does it - I'm sorry for her, but that doesn't mean I sacrifice myself because she won't face her own situation and wants to drag me down with her.
Decording, yes
I'm wondering if decording will really work in this situation?
And if transforming the relationship is unlikely, you could always try to transform yourself. In other words, those unpleasant reactions you experience around your mother could possibly be neutralized. After all, your mother doesn't control the way you feel, you do. This could be a wonderful opportunity to neutralize those feelings and learn tolerance for her exasperating behaviors. I'm not saying it would be easy or that you haven't tried, and in all seriousness, the only reason I make the suggestion is because we choose our parents pre-incarnationally. For better or for worse, there's a reason why we're bound to them for a lifetime.
Best,
Dave