I wasn't surprised at all to know that i have a aggression mode when i got the my chart from Shepherd. Shepherd is Shepherd! On one hand this mode is quite useful to me, on the hand i feel that i am freaked out with it in life, since i don't have any solid role numbers anywhere of the positions. In the chart, I see this "aggression" overleaf as a standing-out color among all the other similar colors.
Being an artisan of an spiritual attitude, a goal of acceptance and low frequency, aggression mode runs like a Chief feature to me! It comes to the point why i chose this aggression before incarnating. And now i know it does serve as a great tool to solve my problems! On behalf of my essence, I thank the spiritual guides who had attended my overleaves design work. My major problem is that the soft and laid-back style make me always want to escape what's happening over there. I have an closed-eye attitude on what is going on. It's possible that in my past life times I was also like this. And being soft is familiar to me, to be aggressive, I still need some practice to master it. It sounds okay to be just laid-back, but the problem is that in the conflicts, the refusal of doing something caused a lot of anger unreleased. For many many year, i don't react to people who offended me. I had heavy kamma in this life time too. It makes things worse. I do have aggresion mode as a tool, which at that time still can't be served as a useful tool to help. It's possible that I was trapped in my past life habit. It feels like a swamp.Not until several years ago, I burst out...and later i gradually became more dynamic when people twist my mind. And aggression mode begins to run. Aggression helps me to react in a dynamtic way.
However, once it begins to run, i have the same problem with those people who have it as a mode. That's why i think it's like a chief feature to me. It contradicts my other overleaves.
